Dream : Bits n pieces

Bits and pieces of dreams from a long, cold ,lonely night where I was waking up every hour or so cause I was thinking to much.

Its raining and cold, I am alone in a corner.I don't know where I am and I wonder where he is? Why did he leave me here? I tremble. I cry.

I wake up. Its only 11:20 p.m. I've been in bed for 2 hours and have 4 more hours before I have to wake up for work.I drift back to sleep.

I'm now outside. The sun is shining brightly, there is not one cloud in the sky. I'm sitting on a picnic blanket in the green rolling hills of the park. He comes to find me and lays down on the blanket by my side and smiles. I lay down next to him as my heart flutters at his very touch.He leans over and gives me a sweet gentle kiss on the lips. So sweet tasting.I just want more. I kiss him back ...

And so I wake up... its now 12 a.m. I sit up in bed and wonder how many more times I am going to wake up during the night. I'm getting frustrated but I managed to drift back to sleep again.

The rain clouds roll into the sunny sky of where we were laying. An ice cold raindrop lands on my cheek and he wipes it off with his thumb. He smiles but it isn't like he normal does. He looks worried. I pick up on his uneasiness and ask him what is wrong. He just looks at me with the same worried smile. He kisses my forehead...

Grrrrrr.... I wake up again. Its now 2:30 a.m. I get up and go to the bathroom. Get back to bed and just lay there and wonder why he was looking at me so worried. I think of him and I miss him. I wish he'd been around that minute to tell me what was worrying him. I finally ( 20 minutes later) will myself back to sleep, lulled by the soothing sound of the rainstorm my alarm clock makes.I don't dream anymore. Just pitch black, dark empty space. Nothing to make the time pass by faster, nothing to make me smile in the morning. Just pitch black emptiness and loneliness.